Thursday, October 14, 2010

::Stone Throwing Thursdays::A little reflection

This week my stone has been reflection. This is the last week of my maternity leave. The 10 weeks I have not been at school have flown by and I can't believe my sweet pea is 3 months old. The other night my husband told me that I am a good mom and I burst into tears because I really needed to hear that. Motherhood has awakened this huge insecurity monster inside my head--all of a sudden I doubt a lot of the stuff I do. My husband was shocked. He was wondering how I could feel that way when she is happy and smiling and talking and growing, that I know what her cries mean and how patient I can be in getting her to nap. I couldn't explain it. So I started focusing on being really present this week and reflecting on what I know about myself and my baby. I even started writing a little piece to give to the day care on Monday--funnily enough its like a sub plan that I would write for my classroom. Not sure if I will ever fully slay the doubt monster but I have really enjoyed this week and plan to make the most of my time with Elle Belle.

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1 comment:

Karen said...

You are a great mom! I don't have half the patience with Justin as you do with Elle!:) Hope everything goes smoothly when you go back to school!